Everything I'm Not, Makes Me Everything I Am

I'm Not tall; I'm Not skinny; I'm Not fast; I'm Not furious; I'm Not arrogant; I'm Not soft-spoken, I'm Not loud, I'm Not fine; I'm Not bored easily; I'm Not perfect; I'm Not a geek; I'm Not popular; I'm Not stable; I'm Not safe; I'm Not very open; I'm Not smart; I'm Not super; I'm Not fantastic; I'm Not influenced easily; I'm Not happy; I'm Not a pessimist; I'm Not sad; I'm not secure; I'm Not satisfied; I'm Not dominant; I'm Not predictable; I'm Not healed; I'm Not fearless; I'm Not too prideful; I'm Not petty; I'm Not gorgeous; I'm Not a non-believer; I'm Not unfair and I'm Not self-ish. But, Everything I'm Not, Makes Me Everything I Am.

To be honest, I am good at a lot of things, but great at nothing. I can solve problems for others, but stumble on solutions for myself. I am the expert on relationships, but struggle to maintain functional ones of my own. I am misunderstood, over-loving and underestimated. I am f*@ked up. I am torn. I am stuck. At times, I am naive, I am stupid, I am dumb. I am scorned. I am talked about, put down, discouraged and kicked often when I am down. I am imperfect and I am damaged to the core. I am scarred. I am selfless to a fault and I am an eternal optimists. I am a perfectionists and I am a crier. I am easily disappointed and I am hurt a lot. I am internally and externally flawed. I am up and I am down frequently. I am puzzled and I am lost. Conversely, I am the future; I am honesty; I am integrity; I am pride; I am passion; I am determination; I am pleasure; I am hope; I am faith and most importantly, I am love. I guess that is why I confidently say to you, "Everything I'm Not, Makes Me Everything I Am." 

~~~Who Are You?!!~~~