Sometimes I Wish I Could Disappear

Perhaps its just me, but Sometimes I Wish I Could Disappear. Not in the sense of leaving earth, but like instantly become invisible in certain situations. Have you ever felt like this? If not, its ok, but I do Wish I Could Disappear often. Do you know why? Well, I am glad you asked. I will give you an example of why Sometimes I Wish I Could Disappear.

So the other day I was traveling from Texas, back to Louisiana and I had a couple of hours between my flights. I quietly grabbed my things and went over to this area near the boarding gate where you can charge your items using free outlets or surf the web for free. My laptop wasn't dying, but just in case I needed it later, I decided to make sure it was fully charged. While I was waiting for it to charge, I pulled out my journal and began to update it. A few people walked by, charged their things and left. A few half asian/caucasian kids, even stayed and charged their video games and played amongst themselves. At this point, I was fine, but out of no where came Waka Flocka Flame's half brother, cousin, from another mother, 2nd removed from the family and his counterpart the love child of Juvenile and Nipsy Hustle.

Now, I heard these clowns even before I could see them. They were walking through the airport making so much noise. The first thing that came to my mind is, "please don't let them be black." Who was I fooling; I knew they were black and young at that. Mainly because anyone with any sense of maturity wouldn't act like that. Immediately, I Wished I Could Disappear at that very moment. The Waka Flocka looking one, had the nerve to come over to me and strike up a conversation. I was cool until he started asking me about Mary Jane in Puerto Rico; as if every black man in America smokes weed. But, I just answered his questions and chalked it up to ignorance. Finally, it was time to board the plane. It was my hopes that dumb and dumber would just board the plane, sit far away from me, and sleep the whole flight---Wrong!!!! These two idiots sat right across from me and were yelling, cursing, and using the N word like it was going out of style. I figured GOD was punishing me at this point. Again, I Wished I Could Just Disappear. Worse, Beavis and Butthead were on their cellphones the entire flight. Now anyone that flies knows you can't use cellphones at all during the flight, because it may interfere with the controls the pilots use in the cock-pit. Obviously, Ren and Stimpy didn't get that memo. I said to myself, "Mayne, if this plane goes down, Imma go out whooping their A$$es!"

I was so embarrassed and ashamed throughout this entire experience. One, all three of us were seated together, so people probably thought I was a part of their tom foolery. Secondly, we were surrounded by people of other races, namely white people, who probably were thinking, "N*ggas!" I wouldn't blame them, because I was thinking the same thing. Each time Cheech and Chong spoke, walked down the aisle with their pants near the ground, and/or took a breath; I just Wished I Could Disappear. There have been numerous moments like this one in my life. It's hard enough being black in this country, but sadly, other black people don't make it anymore easier for us. Thus, Sometimes, especially around your cousins, I Wish I Could Disappear. Or better yet, I Wish They Would Disappear Forever and Never Come Back!!!